Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Chasing Dusk

Someone turns 15 months old today! WOW. I was just getting use to the fact she was already 14 months and then she has to go and get older on me!


We made a visit to a park last night for for a few minutes at sun down. See her very last photos as a 14 month old:


She has continued to make leaps and bounds this month in her small motor development. Just learned a few days ago how to blow a kiss. ADORABLE. ^_^



 I know what you are thinking, cutest polka-dotty dress ever. And you are right.


 & have I told you how curly gorgeous her hair is lately? Because, yeah it is. Also, I won two more awards lately so I will be posting about them very soon!

Sunday, July 18, 2010

Delicate Light

I've never really liked the color yellow. It is so cheery and overwhelmingly happy looking. Like a creepy mannequin painted with a huge fake smile. Or a clown. Not like a cool really-an-evil-werewolf-pretending-to-be-a-clown clown either...more like a super hyper bozo with a high, annoying voice. That's how yellow makes me feel. Though, Illusia makes it tolerable. She makes most things tolerable.

being still, for just one moment.
I could go on and on about the ginormous ways having a child changes ones life. I am sure most parents could, but sometimes it is the little things that really gives us perspective. Life is made up of little things.

being a big girl with her rockstar straw sippy cup
It is in the way she, in the middle of playing, gets up and comes over and hugs me for no reason other than to do it. It nearly knocks me for a loop every time, makes my heart a puddle of warm goo. It is in the way she leans back against me and lets out a little sigh when I watch yet another silly cartoon with her. It is in the way she sometimes turns to me and touches my face like she is seeing it for the first time.

being full of love
And sometimes I see her like it is the first time. I forgot how gorgeous and miraculous and special she is. Then I catch a glimpse of her with the sun in her eyes, a goofy expression on her face, just being sooo her and I remember. I remember that it is not the messes, the whining, the tantrums, the refusing to nap, the being into everything all day. Those are just actions they are not her. She is so much more, she can make anything tolerable.

being her
So, like I said, it's the little things.

P.S.

SQUEEE ducklings!!


Friday, July 16, 2010

How to Make a Mess

A pictorial brought to you by cranky-pajama-Illusia:



P.S. don't ask me why she put her dolly in a homemade torture rack, I really don't know...

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

Blog Crush X's 5

Wow, this last week has been so hot and miserable. It was 100 degrees most of today and still in the 90's at evening time! We have been going nowhere lately because the last time we ventured out Illusia was acting really over-heated and upset even with my best attempts at keeping her cool. Myself, I have felt stir-crazy and really depressed lately being cooped up. I (and this might sound silly) have also been really stressed out that I do not have many pictures of her this month, I like to have at least a few different occasions to commemorate her growing and I feel our recent lack of outings have been leaving a hole in my memory trail. Which adds to me feeling more like crap. Like I said, silly!

I hate the empty ache of depression. The loneliness and gloominess of it, the general constant tiredness and pessimism. It is something I deal with quite regularly but it also dissipates every once in a while only to come back with  a vengeance, As if to remind me 'No, you are not normal! Your life is a mess and hey just look at all these other people being happy like you are..so totally not! NANANANA!' Yes, my inner depressed voice sounds like a middle school valley girl, really.

Anyway enough of my whining... with no pictures I decided to do something a little different today by paying homage to just a few of the blogs I know, love and read. I stole this idea from Marvelous Kiddo, so mucho thanks to that blog! My theft is feeling pretty darn good right about now.

Drum Roll....

5 random--- okay slightly alphabetical, blog crushes:



Alabaster Cow
Aside from the awesome tag-line, it is always such a fun visit when I go to this blog. I can always count on Ericka's sense of humor and sarcasm to make me forget the pains of life and remember to smile because even if it isn't all one big joke, you can make it one!

* Favorite Post: dear extended family (except you uncle ted, you’re just creepy)
It made me laugh so hard I almost woke my daughter! Luckily I didn't, or I might be suing.



Breastfeeding Moms Unite
As you could guess most of the posts revolve around breastfeeding. It is a very good, supportive place to go when you start to feel like a isolated breastfeeding mom in a formula feeding world. I really find it exhilarating to read about the struggles and triumphs of modern breastfeeding women.

*Favorite Post: Actually has nothing to do with breastfeeding and is actually a series of posts called Vegetarian Foodie Fridays. I am a vegetarian and love seeing new recipes!! An example of one I want to try by Melodie is Vietnamese Rice Noodle Salad, yum!


Hobo Mama
A wonderful blog focusing on gentle, natural parenting. Everything is always well researched, articulate and informative. A definite resource for all parents looking for advice and insight into raising a happy child outside of society's depictions of 'normal'.

* Favorite Post: Assuming the best intentions
This is a true, observational gem from Lauren on how us (silly) adults often ascribe false motives to very young children. Creating issues and stress for both us and the child where we could avoid them.




Love Imagine Create
First the name rocks. Second, Holly Renee's posts are always so real, deep and introspective. They manage to tackle squeamish personal issues gracefully and never sound gritty or pretentious. I always leave this blog asking myself meaningful questions and daydreaming.

* Favorite Post: The Humblebird post fills me with delight. It made my heart a little warmer, seeming so silly, innocent and imaginative like something a child would do. And I mean that as the highest compliment! Children have some of the brightest, most expressive minds in the world.



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One Starry Night
I have not been following this amazing blog for long, but I have become quickly smitten with it. I admit the first things that drew me here were the gorgeous layout and the amazing pictures. If you go a bit deeper though, underneath the beauty it boasts are some truly outstanding posts by Sarah that are full of emotion and splendor.

Favorite Post:
 Who Am I? is so deep and heart-wrenching that it makes you want to do something but you are not sure what. I think the post title is a question most of us ask ourselves at one point or another in our lives. Now add to that a lot of confusing and traumatic moments and it is far too easy to see how one can become lost.

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Okay, I have stated my crushes, Now who is going to ask me to prom???